I won’t be muted anymore. I won’t be fucking acoustic anymore. I’ve tried too damn hard to be the girl that everyone wants to see. I’ve tried way too fucking hard to wake up every morning and pull the wool over my own goddamn eyes.

You don’t know what it feels like to not be safe in your own body. You don’t know what it feels like to forget which lies are realities because you have way too many of them.

I don’t trust my goddamn self. I don’t trust my goddamn mouth.

Physical harm is for the weak. For the actors looking for a role. Physical harm is so 2005. I talk myself into circles until I can fall asleep. I talk myself to sleep but I wake up so dizzy.

I won’t sing for anyone anymore. I am not a canary in a cage. I won’t breathe for anyone anymore. I am not a beast that you can prod.

I only have me and my other half. I don’t know which is which. But one will be victorious. And I will let him take over me. One will be victorious. And the other will be thrown to the sea. I don’t care which one. My duality is classic. Wonder and terror. God I hope you win. God I hope you win.

I never said I was brave. You never said you were alone. My courage is ripped from my neck in the form of a golden chain. Your shtick is taken from your wrists in the form of ruby ribbons. My god I didn’t sign up for this.

Fuck you and your goddamn cocaine smile. God won’t save you when you’re on your fucking back, pleading for more. God doesn’t care about you. And as for you, silver place Princess, you will be buried with your arrogance.

I never said I was brave. I will not be your girl. I’m sorry, I don’t trust this goddamn mouth, I’m sorry you don’t trust your filthy whore self.

I am speaking to a wine glass. I never said I was brave.

ugh

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